one month yesterday, you left our sides but remain in our hearts.  I still reach toward my phone reading old text messages from you.  I sit wondering with amazement, how a string of words can define the person you are.  I sleep dreaming of the joys you must be experiencing; joys that go beyond our greatest potential of imagination.  I eat realizing you taught me how to cook the meal before me, and your boundless sense of creativity.  I study examining the reason why I chose this major, a short definition of your influence in my decisions.  I run thinking of trailing thoughts as we pushed each other to our limits.  I pray thanking our Lord of the great joys that I have had and will forever remember.

Chris

I have no words that express how I feel. There are a million things running through my mind.  And I can only focus on one of them, prayer.

So it's finally over and  exhaling never felt so good.  Over the past weeks I think my skin has actually lightened one entire shade index.  I feel like I can compare my skin color on one of those teeth stain charts.  But the whole skin lightening process taken quite a toll on my health.  I think I've gained at least 5+ pounds and my heart feels like it has to squeeze harder with every pump.  In short, I feel like crap.  I want to get back into shape, and walk around without the feeling of my kneecaps being crushed with every step.  Someday I'll draw a line defining the amount of time I'll spend studying versus the amount of time I plan to live and exercise accordingly.  But everyday I think about the days when my resting heart rate was lower than my wasteline. 

Exercise plan: (4 days on 1 day off repeat)

20-30 min jog, situp routine (approx 3-400), pushups (100) Sunday

4 mile loop, situp routine pushups Monday

20 min fast paced, situp routine +50 pushups +25Tuesday

40 min relaxed pace,situp +50 pushups +25 Wednesday

offday, Friday

30-35 min jog, situp +100 pushups +50 Saturday

C